Okay, here I am, sitting in the "computer room" and wondering why the hell it's so hard for me to write. Oh, most certainly I have all the usual excuses available, plus a couple that most people (writers/writer-wannabes) don't, which are both medical and mental. But, then I begin to wonder why I let these things begin to rule over me. My wife is my best fan and best critic (she is wonderful with her "red pen"!), but she doesn't "push" me into doing something that she thinks I just don't want to do at that moment.
Okay, had to take a break to see what was screwing up my sister(adopted)'s computer. Just did a restart and now it's running Spybot to see if (what, actually) is eating it. Heh.
Anyway, back to my rant/ramble/meandering.
I have been sitting at this computer for at least 4 hours and all I have done is read e-mail and read blogs. Granted, the blogs are "required reading" but they should not be the only reason I am on this silly machine. I admit that I enjoy plugging in new programs and making them do what I want them to do, but I still want to write. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I can hear all those other "writers" telling me to "just write". That's the problem, I can't. Won't. Whatever.
When the "muse" hits me, I am rarely in a position to do much about it. Example: I begin to have the idea for a new bestseller just before I fall asleep. Now, sleep is such a prized thing with me, that I will refuse to stop the process, mainly for fear of not being able to start it up again in a reasonable amount of time. Then, I get up in the morning and do you think that that story idea is anywhere to be found? Nope, not usually. If it does, it is either not what I thought it was or it just sounds plain stupid in the light of day.
Hell, I just noticed that most of this really is meandering, but I figure, what the hell, if Stephen King can do it I sure as hell can!
I think I'll leave it at that, for now.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Catching up
Alright, I know it's been a while since I have posted, but life does that, you know. It's Saturday night, I'm sitting here, just finishing up my blog-reading for the day and decided to post here.
To catch up - my visit with my brothers went well, even if I did have to leave a day or so earlier than the other two had to. I had my oldest brother, the one next up from me, and one of the two sets of twins with me at the house of one of the twins. We just sat around and BSed, ate, BSed more, went shopping, BSed, ate, and BSed more. Even went out to the garage where I saw my very first race car (stock, I think) in person and experienced the ear-destroying volume they can produce. I even got to watch one of my brothers attempt to screw in a bolt for a water pump and then watch him take it back out when it broke.
I do have to say that the drive was the absolutely most boring one I have EVER had the joy of experiencing. Miles and miles and miles of absolutely nothing but scrub and a few elk here and there. Having to stop every hour or so to keep from falling asleep at the wheel was fun, too.
Other than that, the days have just been going by, one at a time.
Today was somewhat interesting as the entire family piled into the car and went to my mother-in-laws house to visit and do some cleaning and such. We picked up some wood, metal fencing and a sheet of metal to work on her future goose house. Then, the joy of going through her basement and picking out things that needed to be thrown away and picking out those things that were just too cool to be thrown away and just had to make their way back to our house.
Tomorrow, I get to watch the kids while my wife and my (adopted) sister go back to my mother-in-laws house to do some more cleaning and visiting and such.
I'm just tired, hurting, and dirty.
I think I am off to the shower. What about you?
To catch up - my visit with my brothers went well, even if I did have to leave a day or so earlier than the other two had to. I had my oldest brother, the one next up from me, and one of the two sets of twins with me at the house of one of the twins. We just sat around and BSed, ate, BSed more, went shopping, BSed, ate, and BSed more. Even went out to the garage where I saw my very first race car (stock, I think) in person and experienced the ear-destroying volume they can produce. I even got to watch one of my brothers attempt to screw in a bolt for a water pump and then watch him take it back out when it broke.
I do have to say that the drive was the absolutely most boring one I have EVER had the joy of experiencing. Miles and miles and miles of absolutely nothing but scrub and a few elk here and there. Having to stop every hour or so to keep from falling asleep at the wheel was fun, too.
Other than that, the days have just been going by, one at a time.
Today was somewhat interesting as the entire family piled into the car and went to my mother-in-laws house to visit and do some cleaning and such. We picked up some wood, metal fencing and a sheet of metal to work on her future goose house. Then, the joy of going through her basement and picking out things that needed to be thrown away and picking out those things that were just too cool to be thrown away and just had to make their way back to our house.
Tomorrow, I get to watch the kids while my wife and my (adopted) sister go back to my mother-in-laws house to do some more cleaning and visiting and such.
I'm just tired, hurting, and dirty.
I think I am off to the shower. What about you?
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Happy Birthday to me
Two days ago I turned 47 years old. Yah. Big horking deal. I don't really feel that old, but I guess I am. Aches and pains make me feel older, much of the time, but I refuse to mentally "get old". Being young in mind is wonderful and I enjoy being able to sort of look at things with a younger mental outlook.
Actually, I did have a pretty good birthday. My mother-in-law came over (which I knew about) but then my brother-in-law and his wife showed up (which was a surprise to me). Typical dinner, though much larger than usual, then presents. Oh, was I surprised! My wife went out and got me a high-class telescope (reflecting type) and I was almost floored! I had been wanting one, and we were talking about putting it in lay-away so that it would be "given" in a couple of months. I was, to say the least, flabbergasted. I will willingly admit that I was very close to tears. It was the most memorable birthday that I have ever had. Period.
Tomorrow my wife and I will begin an early morning trek to visit four of my brothers in Alamagordo, New Mexico. We expect to get there sometime in the afternoon (it's about an 8 hour drive) and then we will sit and torment one another till the wee hours of the morning. And tormenting one another is one of the areas my family has always been good at. I fully expect to get ribbed unmercifully as the "baby" of the family. Yep, at 47 years of age, I am still the youngest of 7 brothers and 3 sisters. I know, my parents didn't even get a TV till I was born, so what does that tell you? Heh.
Okay, I am off to the shower. What about you?
Actually, I did have a pretty good birthday. My mother-in-law came over (which I knew about) but then my brother-in-law and his wife showed up (which was a surprise to me). Typical dinner, though much larger than usual, then presents. Oh, was I surprised! My wife went out and got me a high-class telescope (reflecting type) and I was almost floored! I had been wanting one, and we were talking about putting it in lay-away so that it would be "given" in a couple of months. I was, to say the least, flabbergasted. I will willingly admit that I was very close to tears. It was the most memorable birthday that I have ever had. Period.
Tomorrow my wife and I will begin an early morning trek to visit four of my brothers in Alamagordo, New Mexico. We expect to get there sometime in the afternoon (it's about an 8 hour drive) and then we will sit and torment one another till the wee hours of the morning. And tormenting one another is one of the areas my family has always been good at. I fully expect to get ribbed unmercifully as the "baby" of the family. Yep, at 47 years of age, I am still the youngest of 7 brothers and 3 sisters. I know, my parents didn't even get a TV till I was born, so what does that tell you? Heh.
Okay, I am off to the shower. What about you?
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)